Sunday, June 20, 2010

Night without you by my side..

..it's just another boring night..time flies, but in my case time moves very slow..tik tok tik tok... its been 2 weeks since he left us..sometimes its hard to say or show how i feel, whats in my kids mind seeing other people with their father around, playing with them... seeing one happy family sitting at the corner of a restaurant eating together while talking to each other..and lots more.

Hard to control my feeling when i'm feeling down, tears comes out easily..it happens but not all the times..though i'm used to it (when he went to offshore for a long time)..but still, the same feeling will come and go..The feeling that hurts me alot when hes not around.. i miss him to cuddle me, to talk to me, to hear my stories..to do lotsa things together as a family and as a husband and wife..

God please give me the strenght, i need to be strong for the sake of my children..its kinda hard when you are all by yourselve to handle everything..gosh its hard..but i know hes doing all this for us.. and i'm doing this for him and kids..i'm not a superwoman but trying to be one, at least in the eyes of my husband and my childrens i am their supermama..(please dont say i'm vain :p)

Sayang..my love for you is very strong and grows each and every day..on this special day, we would like to wish you Happy Fathers Day..thank you for being a wonderful Ayah to Neesa and Nana..you are a very special person and we love you so so much..

9 comments:

rasp said...

u r one strong lady...
absence makes the heart grows fonder...

*gorjesmum* said...

rasp: tq dear :)

Me, Mrs Taj said...

so lonely kan klu hubby takde..nasib baik ada anak2..ceria sikit..

SyahNas80 @ Nana said...

yup tau perasaan wan..lagi2 bile dah ada anak n hubby takder (keje offshore)...

huh takmo sedey2 k.. u r strong lady...

nana n chacha kan ada.. ada gak peneman... ni kalau yang takder anak lagi n hubby plak kene outstation laaaagiii terasa..

*gorjesmum* said...

me,mrstaj:

hari ni dah ceria :)

anas:
tq..kuat di luar tp kdg2 di dalam hati ada taman bunga orkid ekekkee

ERMAYUM said...

kuar da jiwang post :) good good wan - u re stronger than what u think k - channel it :)

*gorjesmum* said...

eda: am i? huhuhu i rasa everytime dia pegi akan kuar 1 post jiwang i ekekekek ;p

Zuliana said...

alam rumahtangga mmg perlu ada pengorbanan..gorjesmum dah pun melakukan 1 pengorbanan..besar tue ganjarannyer..tabah dan sabar..your hubby pun sure rasa gak ape yg u rasa...hu3..steady la gorjesmum..

*gorjesmum* said...

zuli: huhu tq..

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