Night without you by my side..

..it's just another boring night..time flies, but in my case time moves very slow..tik tok tik tok... its been 2 weeks since he left us..sometimes its hard to say or show how i feel, whats in my kids mind seeing other people with their father around, playing with them... seeing one happy family sitting at the corner of a restaurant eating together while talking to each other..and lots more.

Hard to control my feeling when i'm feeling down, tears comes out easily..it happens but not all the times..though i'm used to it (when he went to offshore for a long time)..but still, the same feeling will come and go..The feeling that hurts me alot when hes not around.. i miss him to cuddle me, to talk to me, to hear my stories..to do lotsa things together as a family and as a husband and wife..

God please give me the strenght, i need to be strong for the sake of my children..its kinda hard when you are all by yourselve to handle everything..gosh its hard..but i know hes doing all this for us.. and i'm doing this for him and kids..i'm not a superwoman but trying to be one, at least in the eyes of my husband and my childrens i am their supermama..(please dont say i'm vain :p)

Sayang..my love for you is very strong and grows each and every day..on this special day, we would like to wish you Happy Fathers Day..thank you for being a wonderful Ayah to Neesa and Nana..you are a very special person and we love you so so much..